Hmmm.

I wish I knew what words to write down.
How to express the way I used to think I could.
Missing the way things used to be.
Not knowing which direction my life Is heading.
Believing in myself is one thing.
But delivering is the other.
Striving for perfection.
But seemingly coming up short.

I'd like to know what it would be like to have everything go right, maybe just for one day.

I look around me and I see so many people I know in places I'd one day like to be.

My question to myself is, what am I really good at? What do I really excel in?

Some things just aren't feeling right for me at this moment and I don't really know how to go about changing them without effecting too many people around me. Seemingly I put other peoples feelings in front of my own sometimes, do I change that, or is that just who I am?

We'll see I guess.

xo